I am a better man
and a terrible one
I am a genius
and a contemptible fool.
I am compassionate
I am warm
I am cold
I am kind
I am cruel
I am mentally sound
and howling at the moon.
I am society’s disease and cure
The culture's most despised and most endeared
I’m everything wrapped in nothing
I want to live forever,
I want to die tonight.
In peace, and in pieces.
I've known the breath of eons that barely existed
I've known the torment of what is everlasting.
I've sobbed tears
of defeat and maniacal triumph simultaneously.
My face in my hands, I tell you now
what you already known.
I'm barely a piece of the man I was,
but sometimes I'm a thousand times the man I ever was.